Dusk: Nkeiru

*cue the beat*

I’m really too young to be feeling this old.

*kills the beat*

All my life I’ve been thought older than I actually am. It’s probably the reason why I had to start babysitting my brothers at 10 and taking care of them as a mother should from 15. I recently turned 20 but I feel I have lived 40 years on this earth. Life is supposed to be exciting and the older you grow the more you experience this but I’m still waiting for the excitement to begin. 2014 was quite different from last year in various ways.


I think I have finally learnt how to deal with my dad and his double standards (you can’t fail any exams in this house but your brother can bulu aju n’isi and not a flip is given). I’m closer to my extended family now and I even travel home more often.


I firmly believe in God even though I have my moments of doubt but when I don’t understand something pertaining to my faith I don’t stress it too much because with age comes an understanding that I can’t even begin to explain. All my darkest moments this year have found me in the Blessed Sacrament seeking solace + I think we are starting to get each other better.


Guess who made the school’s athletic team as their female long jumper and hurdler? No, not Blessing Okagbare onuku, Me. it isn’t easy combining school sports and other activities in a Nigerian University but we are getting there.


I let a lot of people go this year and let even fewer people in this year. I am a one-man-mopol you see and I like to think I am my best company so meeting new people and making friends is struggle. Bablo is that one person I’m grateful I met this year…..wonderful listener, awesome personality, dimkpa nwoke….I could go on and on but I think he knows.


This was one of the good years save for ovarian cysts which dissolved and asthma that is finally going away. Fingers crossed that it gets even better. No migraines, no malaria. What more can a girl ask for?

I admit this post is here and there but that describes my life perfectly this year. I guess that’s why the everybody gets so hyper during the year’s end because it is  a time to get your act together and prepare for a new year and the celebration of the coming of the baby Jesus which is what I intend to do.



Happy holidays Nkeiru dear. Thank you for telling it like it is. Never mind the here and there. Often times it’s the ring of truth.


I love to learn. I love to teach. For me the two are the same.


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