This year has been a good one. A few bumps along the ride. The biggest thing that happened to me this year was passing Diploma and becoming a full Unilag student.
When I look back at 2012 and 2013 [LINK] (indisputably the worst years of my life) I’ll say this year has been awesome. I’ve come from a place of depression and darkness and self-hate and pretending to be happy and trying to find solace in pain and food.
I read my 2012 and 2013 reviews and I’m just amazed at how different things have turned out.
December last year, I remember tweeting, in a moment of hope, that 2014 would be my turn up year. That tweet turned out to be true. I achieved a lot more in this year than I thought I could.
After 2 years of not knowing what was happening with my life I finally resumed school in January. And in high school I had been the smart kid. Top of the class. My mates were already in school, me at home. My parents won’t say it, but I know they were disappointed.
My relationship with my mother became better. It might have something to do with the fact that I’m hardly ever home.
I took risks. I started worrying less. My superpowers are overthinking everything and worrying about every damn thing. But, this year, I turned it down a notch.
Fear and worry will cripple you. Take risks. If they don’t pay off, dust yourself up and try again.
I finally started working on all the projects that I’d been thinking about. I hope to launch everything by the second quarter of 2015.
Pain is temporary. When joy comes, you forget all the pain. Timehop showed me that. I see tweets where I’m all “this is the worst day of my life”. “I want to die”. “I feel like I’m floating. Drifting away” “Nothing makes sense anymore”. All these tweets and facebook posts. And I can’t even remember why I said all those things.
Lade has always been a single pringle. I haven’t tried at relationships. Because, insecurity and my overthinking and over-worrying superpowers. This year, I learnt to love myself more. I went on dates. Had my heart broken three times. Maybe it really wasn’t heartbreak, but I was really hurt.
You know how they say that something great is in front of you and you don’t notice? Well, I finally noticed.
I’m thankful for the awesome friends I made in school. I tweeted something about “I’m making the friends I want to grow up with.” These people are amazing. Sewa, Tosin, Uche, Nife, the entire TEdxUnilag organizing team. Although, most of them are leaving :'(
Mobola, Onyinye, Nazom, Steph, Quam, my entire Psychology class. Laughs for days. Trouble makers.
Kene, Mayowa, the guys at UX Lagos.
I have to find somewhere to put Oyin in this post. Because, babe has been awesome. One of the people that made this year great.
Ibukun, Frank, Temitope, Uncle Efe, Gbemisoke. Always there to listen.
My Leopard People!! My book club is awesome. It’s over a year old and we only just met for the first time in November. Awe.
People keep saying that in the long run, you can’t really count on the people you meet via twitter. And I keep saying that you actually can. These people have been great additions to my life. Asides my psychology class, all the people who made this year great, I met them off twitter.
I turned 18 in October. Yaaaayyy. Best birthday week ever. Except that my phone screen decided to stop working. Fixed it sha.
I didn’t read as many books as I’d planned to read. I bought lots of books. I went out more. I wrote more. I started volunteering for Stand To End Rape Initiative in September.
This living on your own thing is hard when it comes to money. Technically, I don’t live on my own. But, I’m in hostel (outside school). Asides pocket money, I have paid jobs. Let’s just say I suck at saving. At the beginning of the year, I was doing fine but then I don’t know what happened.
On my relationship with God. I don’t even know again. I don’t know how to pray anymore. I can’t even read my bible. The thing is, my faith isn’t “unwavering” anymore. Sometimes, I feel too inadequate. I can’t go to church. I feel too ashamed to be in church or pray or praise. I’m trying now. I said a prayer yesterday
I’m in a very happy place and I’m excited about what 2015 will bring.
Lade, thank you for coming on here. Remember, all your past reviews have had us watching eagerly for your progress. No pressure. Just recognition of your immense potential. Again, thank you for sharing.