Happy Birthday to me!
Yes. It’s my birthday!
*insert your goodwill messages here*
Awww. Thank you very much, that’s sweet of you.
Hi. Her name is Ire
…and this is/was her 2013.
I nearly died at the beginning of this year.
I was ready to go.
Life had paused.
She had become her insides.
Her insides had become all of her.
Skin was melting away.
All one could see? Bones.
Tamela Mann || Take Me To The King
She was ready to go in January
She was ready to quit in February
Her newfoundland
Her career
Her first life
Her first attempt
She did
To leave behind love discovered in February
Love, newly discovered
Love, growing within her
Within him
Stronger
She did
She died
A million and one deaths
We said goodbye to her in April
We gave birth to a new lady in May
Kelly Clarkson || Stronger
She leaped.
Haha no. She crawled first, of course
She found strength in Bankole.
Her friend, her confidant
She found strength in Tolulope.
Her friend, her nigga
She found laughter in Ore
Her buddy, her tirinbeku nigga
She found strength in Funlola
Her sweetness, her sis
She found comfort in Valerie
Her sunshine, her roses
She found rest in Veronica
Her support, her sister
She found love, again, in Adeyemi
Her… man
She discovered that the only power fear had
Was the one she gave it.
She stopped feeding her fears.
They became skinny, like she had been.
They became empty, hungry, more vicious.
Louder
And then…
A vacuum
So, she replaced fear
With trust, with faith, with love
She learned to let go
To forgive
She still hasn’t learnt forgetting.
Hezekiah Walker – Timiney Figueroa || Calling My Name
She misses him
Everyday
She tries to go to his house, once a week.
There are too many people there.
She’s too busy giving them food, water
Too busy to see him
He called her once
“Martha, Martha, thou art anxious, and troublest thyself about many things”
She keeps going tho’
She needs to be there.
Always
She keeps bringing people to the entrance
She keeps showing them the way
She refuses to go in.
Maybe, 2014
If there is a 2014
She found a path in a well
She got in
She climbed up and out of the well
Now, she’s walking into a desert
A desert with oases
Biggest Girl
Not really, she still weighs less than 65kg
Which is fine
The fit life needs to be lived
Happy Birthday to me
Goodbye 2013
2014, how bodi?
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I hardly know Ire and she hardly said anything definite here. But somehow reading this I feel like I know her and as if she said it all. Slightly confused about how that’s possible. Happy birthday dear Ire. Much love