Day 28: Eloho

The Redefinition of me

In many ways, 2016 is a little tough to theme. Well, it was a defining year for me. I grew up as an intelligent, confident child who was allowed to express herself. But as I grew older, thanks to how tall and skinny I was, I was noticed everywhere I went and I didn’t really enjoy the attention so I sorta morphed into a support person, something of a wall flower. I wanted to be behind the scenes, to help others shine and I would be really elated if the spot light was on anyone but me. For that reason, I turned down any suggestion or opportunity that remotely took me out of my comfort zone. Behind the scenes was comfortable, and I convinced myself it was what I was born to do because it was non- intrusive.  2016 seemed to be the year where the universe conspired to push me out.

I was pulled left, right and centre and thrown into uncomfortable roles and I chose to do it afraid. One of the minuses of the being a wallflower was that I got accustomed to wanting to fade away and be ‘normal’ and took for granted how special I really was. In 2016, I took my identity back. Yeah, I am all that, and more.

My confidence grew in quietness

It was a quiet year for me and I think it worried a lot of people.  I was quiet, not very willing to jump in and analyse a situation or offer counsel. I just sat back and watched. But in my quietness, I found such clarity and accuracy. That quiet helped me deal with failure (believe you me, I reached some new lows), delays and even challenges. You know how ideally, you turn off your ignition to refuel your car, 2016 felt like that for me. I was tired of telling people how I felt, and hearing all the eeya’s even from the most caring of them so I just focused on the audience of One. I know it worried my inner circle but I needed it for my sanity.

My perspective changed

I stopped asking God when? I started asking what? So today, what would you have me do? As I asked God what, I found out that He wanted me to live and I decided to live out loud. I was deliberate about doing things without explaining to nobody. I loved guarding my personal space. I planned trips and enjoyed myself. I gave with reckless abandon, and I learned to just be.

I met some more fantastic people

I met amazing people, everywhere, it felt like God positioned people to encourage me. Strangers were so kind to me, it was unbelievable somewhat. Best of all, I constantly I felt like I had a cloud of witnesses pushing me every day, through the tears and telling me to ‘Be More.’

I was loved by strangers and friends alike. There were times when I thought about something I’d like and probably just unlooked and next thing, I’d be gifted with it. Not once or twice even. I kid you not.

In summary

As I review the year, I am grateful for the quiet relentless support of my family and friends. Those that loved me enough not to question my quiet but reached out every now and again to say we are here.  Honestly, you guys are the best.

To the Downtown Isoko crew, y’all are the reason I even have an unserious side. I love you scatter. Thanks for all the ways that you love me to greatness. To my circle of  friends, THANK YOU!!! You don’t even wait for me to ask before you do. You are amazing. My boss and team at work, thank you for everything. You guys were so supportive and I’m grateful.

I may not have seen God’s finger, but I definitely saw His hand. God came through for me, in the ways I could not even have thought possible. My family has many things to be grateful for and even now the list is still growing. The year is ending and I realise I am a lot stronger than I knew I was. I am living my life like it’s golden and enjoying every single bit.

I achieved some milestones this year and feel proud to have seen them through. It’s not the story I would have written but God is the best scriptwriter and I am grateful for what He’s making of my life. Honestly, if I ever had any doubts that God had His eyes on me, 2016 cleared them all.

In 2017, #WeMove.

 

Eloxie

I am a simple young woman and my life is a story of God's stupendous grace (www.stupendousgrace.com). I love God, I love life and I love people.

35 Comments

  • Tobi says:

    “But in my quietness, I found such clarity and accuracy”

    This hit home. Thanks for sharing!!
    Happy new year!

    • Eloho Onwah says:

      Dear Tobi,
      Thanks a lot for reading and I’m glad that resonated with you.
      Happy New Year dear.
      You know you are special to me right?

  • Desmond says:

    Refreshingly candid, the article itself is an expression of the gear shift. Keep it coming!

  • Sarah says:

    Thanks for this piece. I need to write one like it and recount the blessings of God for the year 2016.

    It’s been a pleasure reading your blog and I hope we get more life changing, perspective changing and relatable articles next year.

    While you do what God will have you do, I pray he comes through on the “when” and “why’s”.

    Have a fantastic 2017! ….and yes! You are all that and more….
    S.

    • Eloho Onwah says:

      Sigh, thanks dear Sarah. This has to be the umpteenth time in the past few hours that i am expressly hearing about blogging more in 2017. I am really glad my posts have been a blessing and i will be more deliberate going forward.

      AMEN!!! I pray He comes through on the when’s and why’s cos i’ve sincerely left them up to him.

      Thank you so much for all you are and do. I appreciate you very deeply.
      Love you loads.

  • Joy E says:

    This is so uplifting! Yes you’re all that Eloxie, and more! Thanks for being such an encouragement, such a woman of the word. Our world is blessed to have you. God will fulfil all of His will for you. So it be!

    • Eloho Onwah says:

      Sigh, thanks dear Sarah. This has to be the umpteenth time in the past few hours that i am expressly hearing about blogging more in 2017. I am really glad my posts have been a blessing and i will be more deliberate going forward.

      AMEN!!! I pray He comes through on the when’s and why’s cos i’ve sincerely left them up to him.

      Thank you so much for all you are and do. I appreciate you very deeply.
      Love you loads.

    • Eloho Onwah says:

      Awwwww, thanks Sister Joy. Thank you for everything, for being such an enabler and ministry supporter. God bless you.
      Amen! Amen!! Amen!!!

  • Dr. N says:

    I actually pictured you gesticulating as I read. Lol

    • highlandblue says:

      SAME THING! I almost posted one of her gesticulating pictures inside with my editorial privileges. But Eloho will kill me if I try any such thing. Loved reading lol

      • Eloho Onwah says:

        Ha ha ha, Uncle Efe, you too?
        Why am i surprised. Na on top dis kin mischievous matter dem dey see you. Actually, flesh and blood didn’t reveal it to you. I would have had a gun to your neck if you allowed your clap to enter dance. LOL.

        Love you right back bro.
        Thanks for being there.

    • Eloho Onwah says:

      LOOOOOOL…
      Dr. N, true true, this trouble making power dey your body.
      Love you right back!!!

  • Agatha says:

    …I miss you…

    • Eloxie says:

      I miss you too dear.
      We will fix this in 2017, God willing.
      Thank you for watching my back all the times you did, in spite of your own challenges,
      Now you see that I was not eschewing your company. Ha ha ha.
      Much love sis.

  • E says:

    I looove the #WeMove

    You have such amazing depth and strength Eloho
    Love you and God bless you

    • Eloxie says:

      Awwww, thank you for your kind words dear E.
      They mean a lot.
      Thanks for consistently pushing new barriers and doing great things.
      Love you right back.

      Yes, O, #WeMove

      • Hauwa Edirin says:

        Amazing truth my dear sis. Your ever rich words never cease to put God’s awesome grace to practical perspective. I love the depiction of quietness through the year. Indeed this year has proved good work in progress. May 2017 manifest all we’ve learned, the growth, the beauty of life.
        Love you always dear. More grace for exploits. Stay lifted! #WeMove

  • Kingslee says:

    Very inspiring read, thanks for sharing.

    Never had any doubt about your true potential, looking forward to more greatness in 2017!!

    The big stage is all set for you!!! Fly fly fly……

    • Eloxie says:

      Hey brother,
      We’ve come a looooooong way.
      Thank you for believing, affirming and pushing.
      Thank you for being there even in the quiet.
      Looking forward to God doing great things in 2017, who am I to desire any less?
      It’s time to fly!!!

    • Mr. O says:

      Now I get it

      Eloho 0 : The Birth
      Eloho 1.0: The Conversion
      Eloho 2.0 : The coming impact !

      Now our turn to support you as you inevitably shine !!!

  • Adegboyega says:

    “I was deliberate about doing things without explaining to nobody. I loved guarding my personal space” This is inspiring and well written. The entire review will bless the weak at heart, thank you. God bless you

    • Eloxie says:

      Dear Adegboyega,
      Thank you for your kind words.
      I’m glad you found the post inspiring and relatable.
      God bless you too.

  • Juugo says:

    Loved your piece ma’am.

    Two things I picked from this,
    “In my quietness I found clarity and accuracy” and “What would you have me do,Lord?”
    Two things to really keep to this year.

    Again thanks for a refreshing one.

    • Eloxie says:

      Thank you so much Juugo,
      I’m glad picked something as you read.
      May God bless you with clarity and accuracy and a heart that seeks to meet God’s needs.
      Shine!
      Eloho

  • MaryG says:

    I noticed your quietness… it seemed like a reverie, like an enviable rest, almost “other-worldly” as if you and God were in on something the rest of us could only observe! You’ve obvs come to the end of the year with a finesse and a perspective that nothing but “Rest” could have given you. I’m challenged by you hun… Your witness is sterling!

    • Eloxie says:

      Thanks so much dear MaryG,
      Read this over and over and just wanted to give you a hug.
      Yeah, I’ve entered into His rest and ceased from my labours.
      It’s a blessing to know you.
      God bless you richly.

  • Ibi says:

    Even in your quiet, your beautiful soul always shines through! #WeMove ?

    • Eloxie says:

      Heeeeeeeey,
      You know that I want to be like you when i grow up right?
      Your heart is so beautiful.
      God bless you dear Ibi and yes #WeMove

  • Ima says:

    “One of the minuses of the being a wallflower was that I got accustomed to wanting to fade away and be ‘normal’ and took for granted how special I really was.”

    You are indeed special Elohor. God bless you.

    • Eloxie says:

      Hello darling Ima,
      Na you be dis? As your hand full reach?
      Shakes shekere to God in appreciation
      Thank you so so much.
      You can be sure that i will not forget.
      God bless you dear.
      Much Love.

  • K says:

    Well written E.

    It was a great knowing and working with you this year. I am blessed by your friendship.

    K
    #Wellspring

    • Eloxie says:

      Thank you so much K,

      Couldn’t have asked for a better right hand man.
      Was a privilege to know, walk and work with you too.

      God bless you
      E.

  • Onyeka says:

    My Sis. Well written as usual. Some of us have been tired of the wall paper perspective since 19 kokoro..
    Key lesson for me — focusing on the audience of One..
    love you 10 much!!

  • Tessa Doghor says:

    He writes better stories than we do
    As far as I am concerned in the book right now are scribble and indelible words
    but God thinks they are important.

    Sorry for going quiet for the last two years, I have been sorting through my issues and i am just going to say that His grace is sufficient for me.

    I believe that grace will be sufficient for you too.

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