DAY 22 : DOLAPO

Hey everyone, Dolapo here.

So I asked to do a review of this year for Pa Efe. This is going to be a bit longwinded so grab some popcorn.

My year started last year because I’ve had to have long periods of inactivity in between. Sometime in June/July last year, after a week of severe hyperactivity, I was finally diagnosed as bipolar.

The week saw me strain relationships and climaxed with me shouting from atop an acquaintance’s fence in the rain.

In my underwear.

At this point I have to declare the love I have for Mrs. ‘Lola Ogedengbe. Were this testimony time in church this is where I’d start singing “Iya ni wura iye biye…”. She beat me, cried over me and took me to a psychiatrist pronto.

Not deliverance, psychiatrist.

The next 2 months were spent mostly in a haze of medication as I fought the compulsion to work. My parents had to infantilize me.

I just wanted to work.

To Work. Sing. Sew. Dance. Write. Walk around at midnight.

Then it was time for Operation Salvage because things had been going to shit with school.

I tried to defer, spent almost 3 months on that and returned for confirmation only to be told I had been asked to withdraw. This after 3 years studying Law in Unilag.

We tried to appeal the decision but the university probably did not want to set a bad precedent by approving the appeal, even with my circumstances. That took another 3 months.

It’s now April and we were in Savage Salvage Mood. At least my mother was. I was ready to throw my hands in the air, forget about everything school related for now and become a dancer.

That, of course, was unacceptable. Threats of disowning and disavowing were being not-subtly-at-all given. The solution was to pack me off to private school (Caleb University) where I spent the next 3 months (again, what is up with this number?) eating, reading novels and watching movies. I attended maybe 3 classes my entire time there.

After this recalibration period, as Mother calls it, I was ready for the academic life once again because I met so many people in Caleb who were finding their feet again and making the most of Life’s cards. They gave me the strength to face schooling again.

I studied for less than a month (I don’t want to say 3 weeks ?) for the UNILAG¬†foundation programme exam, on subjects I hadn’t touched in 4 years, and passed very well.

Now I’m preparing to study Psychology (YAAASSSS!). As the Devil is a bastard baby I had another bad manic episode, mainly because of the stress of school and commuting. Had to spend over a week at home in the middle of lectures.

Even now I’m not sure I’ll pass my first in-course test because I’m just not ready as I haven’t been able to focus or had time to really study. My meds only allow me truly useful time of about 7 hours each day.

Not nearly enough.

Yet “In all things give thanks,” says the Lord. Bros J Sneh and I have become closer as His Joy has been my strength through these trying times.

I thank Him for all those who have been there for me and may their rivers of Life flow clear and sweet.

I’ll be turning 20 next year and hope that as I enter a new decade old things shall indeed pass away.

Thank you for reading this. Stay blessed.

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The clarity of mind it took to write this alone is a testimony. I’m so grateful on your behalf for your very patient and understanding support system. God bless and prosper your way. Thank you so much for sharing your 2015 story Dolapo.

Dolapo

A girl who just wants to have fun and with the Lord, be one.

23 Comments

  • Tobi says:

    Wow Dolapo!!! You are strong beyond words and thank God for your life.
    I wish I had the write words to say to you so I’m sending you lots of e hugs and a prayer that you find the strength to live through everyday!!!

    Cheers to 2016!!!

  • solodninjah says:

    Oh, my God! Dolapo, you’re amazing. A beautiful story. I’d love to get to know more about your story. I’m a screenwriter. Are you on twitter, Facebook or whatsapp?

  • chiny says:

    I am excited for the Woman i know you would become. Keep on Keeping on!

  • Jvmoke says:

    I’m glad you’re doing better. I’m glad you know that you having God helps.
    I’m so sorry you have to start over. But time is the swiftest thing yet, and you’d do great.
    May 2016 give to you a new level of greatness.

  • Adedolapo says:

    Namesake ?. You’re a strong person. Thank God you’ve found your footing. Try and focus on school,you’ll be good. Take care b.

  • Motvnrayo says:

    You’re strong. You can (and will ) only get better. God bless you

  • Dekemi says:

    I love your sense of humour! When I read bipolar, I was getting sad and then I read “the devil is a bastard baby”, “Bros J Sneh” and couldn’t stop the laughter.

    Dear Dolapo, may your days be bright and your paths straight. May you find peace and clarity of mind. May you be much more than you ever imagined. I have a word for you. Remember when God was going to bless Abraham and asked him to look as far as he could see? Dolapo, look! How far can you see? God will give you that much!

    Never let go of yourself. Keep pushing. You can.

  • A says:

    Lots of love and ehugs your way. I hope the new year gets to be better.

  • Tomi says:

    There’s a deep sense of hope and tenacity in your voice. I admire your optimism. Onward and upwards from here on out, Dolapo. And I love that you’re now studying Psychology.

    Heavenly blessings. And I hope Bros J Sneh’s boundless love for you is revealed even more as the new year commences.

    PS, Your mum is awesome for taking you to the psychiatrist

  • Mariam Sule says:

    Wow. This is my life right now. Please is there anyway i could talk to you?

    • Dolapo says:

      Hello Mariam, I’ve sent you an email. If you can’t reply that, my Twitter handle is @St_Gothica. Reach out to me there.

  • Rolayo says:

    Old things will pass away dear!
    The path of the just is like a shining light, that shines brighter and brighter until the perfect day, so keep shining. It can only get better.

  • Lizzieebunoluwa says:

    Wow! Good God; Great God! Blowing my mind since 1900………
    Congratulations on healing, deliverance, peace, progress and light! The devil is a bastard indeed.
    Bless your momma’s heart. God’s got you dear!
    Shine on!

    P.s; You’ve got a radiant smile. its beautiful.

  • Clarion says:

    Wow! Great sense of humour, and I love your positivity. Big cheers to your mum for taking you to the psychiatrist and not the deliverance minister. I pray you find grace and strength to excel in all you do.

  • Tokwonna says:

    Kudos to your mum,for taking you to a hospital instead of a church, rare in Nigeria, and to you for being strong and knowing and doing ,the needful things

  • eloxie says:

    I love your sense of humour and I am awed by your perspective. It is very inspiring to take all life throws at you, own it and make the most of it which is exactly what you are doing. Not many of us are able to do that just yet. We are still asking ‘Why me?’

    Sending a very very special holla to your mum, God bless her.

    Dolapo, I wish you light and life in 2016. I pray you find strength by the day to live life fully and as you embrace your unique journey , may you find lovely surprises on the way and courage when you least expect it.
    I celebrate you.
    Have an amazing 2016!

  • Gidi Mallam says:

    Thank God for your life Dolapo.

    I can only imagine how you went through all of this, but I am thankful that you are alive, and that you could write this. May God continue to give you grace, and may He go ahead of you and straighten all the paths ahead of you.

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