This year has been. Interesting to say the least, but through it all I can say that I have learned and am constantly learning. I’ve learned that happiness is a choice. One you must make every day.
As I write this I’m tempted to focus on all the things that didn’t go right, but so many things went right too. And I need to learn how to be thankful for those things.
This year I accomplished things I didn’t think I could. I finally launched my website (check it out: mosopeani.com). I got to go home after 8 years, that was such a blessing. You don’t realize how much you value your home until you’ve been away for so long. I finished undergrad in 2.5 years. I graduated yesterday actually. *does mini twerk sumtin*.
I lost weight, gained it back again. *insert tears*. I wasted so much money, but God has always been faithful. God gave me blessings in the disguise of people. God gave me blessings in the disguise of challenges.
And while so many things might not be going right, I choose to be thankful.
I’ve learned that I’m too nice at times and I need to develop thick skin. I’ve learned that you can’t force people to stay in your life and that it’s important to choose myself sometimes. That no one else is obligated to be consistent in your life besides you. I’ve learned that I can kill myself small. That I’m capable of so much more than I give myself credit for.
I still don’t know how to accept compliments, I’m still as awkward as the come. But I’m growing, and God is working in me. I still have so much to work on, and that’s okay. I’ve learned that chasing perfection will just leave you tired and frustrated. I’m learning to choose myself every day. I’m learning to chase my dreams no matter how much fear I feel each step of the way.
This year has been interesting, and as much as I have seen darkness, day by day, I’m learning to seek light.