I’m not really sure where I’m going with this, but, let’s see how this goes.
2015 wasn’t/isn’t a spectacular year, but it wasn’t/isn’t a terrible year either. If I were to describe it in one word, it’d be: “meh”.
I became an “actual” Unilag student this year, after successfully completing the Diploma last year. I was and still am really excited to be studying Psychology (which is not as easy as people think it is).
I was reading through my plans for 2015. I think I achieved a little bit of what I wanted to. I started my book swap service, didn’t start MySadaka, didn’t do the YouTube series, didn’t blog a lot (actually, I was blogging consistently but then my laptop stopped working and Smile started scamming me). I didn’t take any Cousera, Edx, or Codecademy classes. I didn’t eat healthy, I worked out consistently for a few months, fell ill and stopped.
I really underestimated Psychology. In the middle of assignments, weekly reports, tests and things to read, I didn’t have time to do a lot. I had to quit most of my jobs early in the year. But, glory be, I’m on very good academic standing (both legs firmly on the ground. Lol).
I learnt what it meant to be broke. As in, pata pata, broke finish. One time, my account balance was zero naira, zero kobo. But, I survived. These times made me learn that, God will always work out a way for you. There was one time I was very broke and I wasn’t expecting money from anywhere any time soon, then I got a message that I’d won the Instagram giveaway I entered on a whim. N10,000. I was happy, ehn.
Speaking of God, I think I’ve improved on our relationship. I talked to Him more, even though it isn’t as often as I should. And I still haven’t learnt to leave things for Him. It’s like I like to carry everything on my head. I didn’t go/haven’t gone to church at all this year. I always find one excuse or another.
My most rewarding experience this year was organising TEDxUnilag. I met a lot of great people. The speakers, the volunteers, it was great. The thing happened like film trick. A week to the event, money had not come in, we didn’t have a venue. We were only sure of the people who were coming to speak. Everything else was up in the air. We were even talking of postponing it. But somehow, we pulled it off and it was a success. I got to meet LeriQ, Frank Donga, Falz and many other interesting people.
Another great experience I had was much earlier in the year in January. I had the opportunity to go for a 5 day trip to Abuja. It was a workshop, all paid for. It was fun and I loved every moment of it.
I’m still not sure of the exact direction my life is going in. I enjoy doing a lot of things. I don’t see exactly how Psychology fits into everything yet. I like to teach, I’ve always known this. I volunteered to teach secondary students programming with CcHub’s Geeks Club and it is/was a very great experience. I tutor people in school. I also love writing and editing. I love books. I don’t know how all these things will work together.
I was feeling a bit depressed before my 19th birthday and my friend Onyinye made me write a list of 19 things I’m grateful for. It was a very weird list but it made me happy.
A very important lesson I learnt this year is that no one is indispensable. You aren’t indispensable. If you don’t treat people right, eventually, they’ll get tired of your bullshit and leave you where you are.
I stumbled upon something I wrote when I was 15 or 16 about my goals in life with specific timelines. The first goal is that I want my book exchange service to be up and running by the time I’m 20 (that means I have a little over 10 months to meet my deadline). BookBarter kicked off this year, but not in the way I expected. I hope 2016 brings better things and more opportunities for us. Work on MySadaka is taking longer than I expected.
I didn’t do any travelling this year. I missed Ake again. This time, I was in the hospital. Hopefully, I make it next year.
I like who I am and who I’m growing into. I’m more confident and outspoken. I’m loving myself and loving my body. I’ve had a love-hate relationship with my body in the past, but now, it’s all love (most days). I’m starting to actually care about my appearance (This made my mum and all my friends very happy. Some people say it’s because I now have bae, but I don’t know because I haven’t seen him for like half of the year because NYSC). I’m wearing clothes that’s not danshiki and some days, I wear makeup for no reason. I’m going out more, I’m making more friends. I’m doing things to make me happy. I’m taking (sensible) risks. I’m still finding myself and learning about myself. I’m going to try to keep a journal. You people who do it, come and tell me how.
I’ve been listening to the radio a lot this past few weeks. My mum’s office isn’t too far from mine, so I go with her. Anyhoo, there’s this ad that plays for some revival night of one of the big churches and they always say this verse: “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it.” This is what I’m holding on to for 2016.
I am actually excited about 2016. I’ll be entering my 20s and by the end of the year, I’ll be in my final year of uni. Hopefully, I learn to budget better.
Btw, I need to fill up my December calendar with events. I want to really enjoy December and go to as many parties and events as I can. Send me an email (firstname.lastname@example.org) or a tweet (@deaduramilade) if you can help. Tenz. Also, I’m very sure there are many things I forgot to include in this review. This is why I need to keep a journal.
I love how you take a back seat and just watch your life. You didn’t talk much about family and friends. You have loads of amazing goals. It’s time to meet the people that will help you achieve them. I feel wistful that your romantic teens are almost over LOL. Much love Lade. We are here rooting for you.
Dear readers, tomorrow is another day!